wow, i haven't updated my xanga in forever. -_-
well, i turned 17. so yay! man... i'm getting old. i just hope i get my license this week or before wednesday, cause that's when i have to sign up for parking spaces.
SAT is this week. ugh. i need a really good score. i just keep making stupid mistakes which keeps me from getting a 700. makes me mad. ugh. but hopefully, my "charming" (coughyeahrightcough) personality and "beautiful" (ahahaha!) paintings and drawings will catch me attention. if not, hopefully my stories which i haven't actually finished or started writing will. bad thing about me is that, i can never express my stories the way i want them to. my fingers always take over and it always ends up different. sometimes the words just don't flow the way it should. beautiful ideas and themes, but no structure or style to shape it. kinda sad for a writer, you know. if i could have any power, it would probably be the power to make my imagination come alive inside my words. lol. kinda dumb, huh?

i want my words to make people cry. i want my characters to be "touchable". i want my stories to be colorful too. beautiful sad gray for the heart-wrenching scenes. bright yellow and orange for the joyous scenes. there's a lot i want to pour into words or drawing or painting. i neither have the talent nor the skills. maybe i'll meet some people who do have the talents and skills. hahaha, perhaps one day, i'll be even more famous than Disney or J.K Rowling. i could make my own dramas, novels, movies, and perhaps other people would enjoy them. yeah... wouldn't that be great...my name at the end of the credits or underneath the title of a popular book.